Happy 1st Birthday Day to my Baby Boy.
A year ago today, I stood in the delivery room, watching Julie go through 38 hours of labor (34 natural, 4 with an epidural), screaming and crying, pushing and trying.
I remember holding her hand and feeling useless because I couldnt help ease the pain or take on some for her. I watched her while staring at the heart monitor. I guess I'd seen one too many movies. She hadn't eaten in 38 hours or slept...Shit, I know I would have killed someone by my 5th hour without food. Im surprised she never passed out from all that intense screaming and pushing...Im surprised I didnt either now that I think about it.
But when she made that final push, and the doctors pulled my baby boy out it was honestly the greatest feeling. His birth was my rebirth. I had a new best friend. I had a new reason for living.
Every parent will tell you this, it isn't easy being a parent, especially good one. Sleepness nights. Shitloads of diapers. Literally. Squirmy, slippery bodies in the bathtub. Messy eating, spitting machines. Face slaps. Throat kicks. Farts in your face while you're sleeping. Pee in your face if you're not fast enough. Barf faces if you dont burp them on time. Running, screaming, crying, climbing, jumping, banging, breaking, smashing, ripping and eating every damn thing they can get their hands on. Not to mention the rollercoaster ride you go through with your partner. Im telling you...this shit aint no joke. But I love every single second of it.
To Julie, hats off to you for being such an amazing mother and an awesome team mate. You've done an amazing job and Ben and I are blessed to have you in our lives. To my mother, thank you for loving me and never giving up on me. For teaching me what love is so I now know how to share it. And to my baby boy...you are my heart, my soul, my everything. You have changed my life in ways you will never understand until you become a father. I love you and can't wait to see you grow. Just dont grow too fast ok?
Happy Birthday Ben.
Special thanks to Parisa of BB Cafe (6095 Yonge St, Toronto (416) 505-5855) as well for the amazing cake(s)! I know he was supposed to smash it but I think he appreciates your art too much to do such a thing.